A Millenial Dilemma

I’ve been living in Manchester for 3 months now, having moved from Edinburgh and while I love it here and know I’ll be staying for the next year or so – I’m already getting that itchy feet feeling where the idea of upping and moving somewhere else again seems highly appealing. Throughout my life, albeit I’m only in my 20’s so it hasn’t been that long, I’ve always been a planner and tried to plan how long I will be in a place or job before I’ll be moving onto the next new thing.

It was always the plan to move to Manchester, it just happened a little sooner than anticipated, and now I’ve gave myself the timescale of 1 to 2 years here, before I move to London or further afield (Toronto I’m looking at you). But the issue is – I want to do it now and I’m wondering where this constant want to move onto something else stems from as currently I’m very happy; I’m happy with my job, I’m happy with my flat, I’m happy with who I live with and I’m happy with my social life – but why isn’t this enough? The idea of London excites me so much, but A – I can’t afford it right now which is one of the reasons I moved to Manchester first as I need to move up the career ladder and earn more before it’ll be doable and B – It was stressful enough to move from Edinburgh to Manchester, I cannot imagine what the process of moving to London must be like! I just feel like we are always told to get the most out of life, so there is this pressure for us to do exactly that by taking part in many different experiences while young – living in different places being one of them.

Trying to be all ~*mindful*~ about what I have now and the possible reasons for wanting to move sooner rather than later, I think it comes down to three things.

  1. I’m a driven person and when I see people the same age as me or younger, doing more senior jobs than me and amazing kick-ass things in exciting creative fields, I want the same. I’m never going to be the person who can just settle with a job if its “alright”, I ain’t getting any younger and I want that ever allusive ~dream job~
  2. Following the first point, as you can probably tell by this post and others, I’m inpatient which seems to be a common trait for people my age so I know I’m not alone in this. But I have the attitude that why should we wait for something to happen, when its us ourselves that has to make the change and has the power to do it and when you want to. This stemming from that issue of feeling the pressure to gain the most out of life.
  3. Finally I’m also selfish in the sense that mainly I am going to look out for myself, meaning if I’m in a job and it isn’t right – I’ll move on and the same goes for where I live. Part of this stems from not wanting to get too attached to anything, people included, as I’m all so aware how quickly things can change for better or for worse.

Is all of this wrong? I think not – live life mainly for yourself, not others. But saying this there is a line still where I still need to consider those around me and when actually might be a good time for me to move on, rather than being impulsive which I am around 89% of the time. I don’t know what I’m trying to gain from this post as I reckon I’ll constantly be battling this dilemma, I guess this rambling is more for myself to just air out these problems I’ve created for myself. Either way the count down is on, who knows how long I’ll stay here before upping and moving my life again – only time will tell. Thanks for reading, until next time.

– J

 

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Dipping My Toe Into ESO

Please pardon the rhyme in the title of this blog post, it was too tempting to not include it – Ok, so earlier today while going through my usual trawl of the different MMORPG forums and subreddits I read in my spare time, I found several posts on a recent sale on ESO Morrowind, link below, where the expansion had been reduced down to £6.07 (a steal, I know). This was particularly attractive to me as it has been something I’d be thinking on buying for a while now and at this price, I was slapping in my card details straight away.

https://www.greenmangaming.com/games/the-elder-scrolls-online-morrowind/

But Elder Scrolls Online is one of those games that I’ve had an on-off, love-hate relationship with since beta and its launch, and for some reason, no mater how hard I try, I just can’t seem to get into it. Having never purchased any of the DLC’s for ESO though, Im hoping that Morrowind will keep me compelled enough to give it another shot and get me hooked. I’ve only ever managed to get to around level 18 on a character as I find the combat and landscapes uninspiring (the zones all feel the same for me). But with the introduction of the Warden class, I want to give it another shot as the class was initially what perked my interest when the expansion first launched but I couldn’t warrant the price tag for a game that I wasn’t playing that much at the time. I’m also a huge fan of a pet class with my main in WoW being a hunter, so again the class which features a bear pet as part of it’s mechanics, is highly appealing to me.

Another issue I’ve had with returning to ESO in the past is that I’m always confused on what I should be doing quest-wise as I’ve forgotten my progress, my inventory is a mess and filled with mats for crafting and my talents have been reset, but starting a new fresh character will mean I’ll have none of these problems! So since this opportunity to give the game another try looks to good to pass up, it seems I’ll be dipping my toe into ESO again (great tie-in of the blog title there if I do say so myself).

I’ve already decided on my character – an Aldmeri Dominion, High Elf, Warden (I love playing elves on MMORPGs, it’s something to do with their often pompous/secretive society and usually kickass military prowess) and in a bid to keep me more involved in the game I might do weekly blog posts on my process with some cool screenshots, a sort of gaming diary. Disclaimer though, given my past attention-span to stick to such things, we’ll see how long this lasts. The intention is there currently though and I’m excited to get back into the game. Hopefully I’ll see you soon with my first ESO diary update!

– J

Juggling Time

Recently I moved from Edinburgh to Manchester and started a new job and with all this change, as you’d expect, it has became an extremely busy period in my life. I’ve been here now for nearly three months and it doesn’t seem like how busy I am will be slowing down anytime soon. Not to be one of those people who complains that they are always busy, as 9 times out of 10 they aren’t and this isn’t a post about complaining I’m too busy as I enjoy being kept this way and I do have those days where work is slow and I have nothing planned in the evening. But one thing I’m learning is that’s becoming harder to manage juggling time between all my interests, friends, family and work, or is this just the struggle of adult life?

To put these ramblings into some sort of perspective, I work a 9am till 6pm job with a 30 minute commute to and from (this is pretty standard for most people and something that I am in no way complaining about as I enjoy my job and everyone I work with) but outside of work I really enjoy doing art, cooking, playing video games, going to the gym, meeting my friends, dating etc. and then this doesn’t include the things that I don’t necessarily enjoy but have to do, laundry, cleaning, other adult stuff etc. The problem is that my hobbies that enjoy in my spare time like art take me long periods of time, which isn’t feasible when, by the time I’ve got home from work, cooked, ate and gone to the gym – it’ll be 9pm. This has meant that lately I’ve neglected the things I enjoy doing, and as you’ll see with my last post there is plenty I want to do on the MMORPGs I play, which isn’t happening currently. So how do people manage to do all the things they enjoy without neglecting something or someone else? Or is that even possible, is this just something that as I get older I’ll come more to terms with, the fact that being an adult means prioritising and sacrificing some of the stuff I enjoy in my spare time?

Maybe I’ll just stop seeing friends and dating etc as they take up whole evenings in itself, quit the gym and play MMORPGs or paint straight from when I get home… This seems like the only logical option?! Sarcasm/rambling aside, one of my earlier posts was about mindfulness and how I want to take more time out for myself, it seems now more than ever I need to go back to this and learn how to manage my time better so I can prioritise more and trade off between the things I find enjoyable in my spare time by taking it in turns on how I spend my evenings e.g. art or gaming. If only I could go back to my university days when I had plenty of time to spare-time. Actually scratch that, I much prefer the busy life I lead now… I think. Well I hope some of this mindless rambling made sense and you enjoyed it, until next time.

– J

June 2018 Gaming Goals

Hello all, I’ve seen a few of these posts now and thought I’d start giving them ago myself, just so I can keep a monthly track on my goals in the main games I play and see if I’m making any progress – I say that like theres hundreds of games I’m playing but alas it seems lately that I just limit myself to World of Warcraft and sometimes I’ll dip my toe into a couple of other MMORPG’s as well.

World of Warcraft

Towards the end of May I let my sub run out for WoW so I plan on picking it back up this weekend to clear up some Legion content and level some Alts before the BFA pre-patch hits in July sometime. To make this easier to read I’ll split this section up into the goals I have for each of the different characters I’m playing currently.

Goblin Hunter Lvl 100 (My Main):

  • Finally get exalted on the remaining main Legion faction I have left to do – Court of Farondis. I’m currently sitting towards the end of the Revered bar so this shouldn’t take long for me to achieve at all, especially since I know I have a completed follower mission waiting with the Court of Farondis rep as a reward.
  • Complete a couple of paragon levels with the Legion reputations that reward mounts. Being an avid mount collector in WoW I really want to get the Mounts that are gated behind the Paragon levels, especially the Wild Dreamrunner. Again I know that I’m close to completion on a paragon level with both the Highmountain and the Nightfallen.
  • Have over 100,000 gold. I know this isn’t much to most WoW players but I’ve never been good with saving gold on WoW and now I’m sitting around the 90,000 mark and I want to get into triple figures!

Nightborne Warlock Lvl 73:

  • Finish both the Hellfire Peninsula and Dragonblight zones. When levelling my Allied Race characters I like to take them through the zones that I feel would be most appropriate for their race/story, and being a completionist I have to explore and finish all the quests in the zones I level through. But with the new zone scaling system in Legion I didn’t realise how long 60 to 80 takes and Dragonblight became a drag so I switched to Hellfire Peninsula – meaning both in turn need completing now.
  • Level to 80. As I’ve said the level 60-80 level bracket seems to take forever so I need to just grit my teeth and get through it as then I’ll be able to play the Cataclysm and Mists of Pandaria zones which for me are infinitely more enjoyable and easier to level in.
  • Get exalted with Silvermoon. This one is more because with Bloodelves being one of the main reasons why the Nightborne join the Horde, lore wise they should have a good reputation with the city. Plus when it comes to my Garrison in Draenor, I want to deck it out with blood elves everywhere, and being exalted with Silvermoon and having the Barracks will allow me to do that.

Lightforged Paladin Lvl 45:

  • Start and finish both the Felwood (where I’m levelling currently), Swamp of Sorrows and Blasted Lands zones.
  • Level to 60 so I can begin completing all of the zones in Outlands.
  • Get exalted with the Exodar. This is for the same reason as my Nightborne and Silvermoon – Character story and I want to deck out my Garrison in Draenor with Draenei everywhere!

SWTOR

After watching Solo : A Star Wars Story, I recently got back into SWTOR. One thing I particularly enjoy about SWTOR is the costume and stronghold customisability so my main goals for June are to finally settle on a cool looking outfit for my main, a Sith Sorcerer, to finish decorating my stronghold and to save over 20m credits – this should be relatively easy to do as I’m currently sitting on 13m and have a lot of Cartel Market LootBox items on the auction house.

Well there we are, all of my gaming goals for June. Fingers crossed I’ll be able to make some head way on my characters on WoW as I want to be as ready as I possibly can for BFA so I don’t have to keep going back to finish Legion content. Thanks for reading.

– J

WoW Allied Race Ideas

Hello all,

I’ve been playing a lot of World of Warcraft lately and with the coming of the new expansion ‘Battle for Azeroth’, one feature being introduced has been a hot topic for discussion online – Allied Races. If you’ve been living under a rock, allied races are essentially new playable races that you have to recruit to the Horde or Alliance through a quest line and reputation grind. Then once an allied race is created they start at level 20 in their own unique starting area/hub and when they reach level 110, they receive their own unique transmorgable heritage armour. I for one love this new allied race system as it allows for some unique playable races to be added to the game which we’ve been interacting with for a while. Where this system excels for me though is through the added lore it brings to the game, allowing pervious topics to be fleshed out further and groups and their cultures to become more established, such as the four allied races already live – Highmountain Tauren, Nightborne Elves, Void Elves and Lightforged Draenei. The fact you have to earn them as well also makes playing one of them seem even more prestigious.

As it seems thus far with allied races, one of the original races is responsible for their recruitment and the allied race itself shares the skeleton of one of the original races, allowing the different factions access to models they normally do not. So in this post I’m going put forward my ideas for some other allied races that I’d like to join the Horde and Alliance, updating the post over time, and go into the detail of the lore reasoning for why they join, who is the lore figure to recruit them, and how they could be implemented model-wise (Disclaimer, there will be lore spoilers ahead so read at your own risk)! So without further a-due here are my (not so original) allied race ideas.

Horde

San’layn – Recruited by Nathanos for the Forsaken

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Lore – Always seeking to grow the Horde’s power, Slyvanas had already let a small group of ‘free’ San’layn lead by Blood Prince Devan join the Horde, but this is not enough and now she is seeking a way to grow their numbers.

Recruitment – Time and time again the San’layn have fell at the hands of the Alliance, in Northrend, at the Icecrown Citadel, in the Violet Hold and now in Vol’dun. So seeking to grow their numbers Slyvanas has tasked Nathanos with hunting for an artifact to resurrect Blood-Princess Thal’ena, the daughter of Blood-Queen Lana’thel, so she can spread their bloodline. The recruitment quest line takes the hero and Nathanos to Blood-Thane Lucard’s tomb in Stormheim where they are hunting for the artifact that first turned him into a Vampyr. After killing several of the frenzied pirates still in the area they find the blood orb – a device of old god origin that is responsible for the original curse. The hero and Nathanos then must sneak into Acherus to steal the body of the Blood-Princess which the Knights of the Ebon Blade have managed to acquire and plan on returning to the Lich King. Now with the body and orb in hand, Nathanos and the Hero require a large amount of sacrifices to enact the ritual and return the Blood-Princess to life, with the island prison Tol Dagor in Tiragarde Sound holding a captive audience – the perfect place for the ritual to take place.

After storming the prison and using the ritual to resurrect Blood-Princess Thal’ena, the orb is destroyed in the process resulting in all the sacrificed prisoners to become Vampyrs as well. Blood-Princess Thel’ena sires these new Vampyrs to herself and pledges herself to the horde under the banner of the San’layn vowing to bring havoc the Alliance that has caused so much destruction to her family in the past, starting with Kul Tiras and using the ruins of Tol Dagor as the base of her operations.

Implementation – The allied race San’layn would use the human model but with pale skin, blood red eyes, fangs, slightly pointed ears and new varying hairstyles, and would start in the ruins of Tol Dagor, which would be their racial hub. Their racial mount would be a bat and their heritage armour mirroring that of Blood-Princess Thel’ena’s. Finally classes they could play include – Warrior, Hunter, Priest, Warlock, Rogue and Mage.

Stonemaul Ogres – Recruited by Rexxar for the Horde

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Lore – Tharg, current chieftain of the Stonemaul Ogres, has petitioned to the Horde for help, they have learnt that the woman of the tribe are being held captive under the ruins of Stonemaul Village by the remaining black dragons in Dustwallow Marsh. After more brute force in the Horde, Slyvanas has tasked Rexxar with reuniting the remaining pockets of Stonemaul Ogres in Feralas and Dustwallow Marsh, to reclaim their ancestral home of Stonemaul Village and liberate the tribes women to not only strengthen the Hordes position in the marshes, but strengthen the Stonemaul Ogres as a race.

Implementation – The allied race Stonemaul ogres would use an altered Kul Tiran human model, allowing for female ogres and would start in the underground caves of Stonemaul, beneath Stonemaul Village, which would be their racial hub. Their racial mount would be a boar and their heritage armour mirroring that of Rexxar’s. Finally classes they could play include – Warrior, Hunter, Mage, Warlock, Monk, Shaman.

Hozen – Recruited by Ji for the Huojin Pandaren

Vulpera – Recruited by Trade Prince Gallywix for the Bilgewater Cartel Goblins

 

Alliance

Botani – Recruited by the Night Elves

Lore – Devastated by the destruction of Teldrassil, Tyrande is looking for new power and allies to help strengthen the Night Elves in the war against the Horde. Having subjects who have survived the wilds of Draenor and the Botani’s savagery, Tyrande is well versed with the raw power of the Primal’s and the link that could be made between them and the Emerald Dream. But as the path to Draenor is sealed shut the only link left to the Botani and the hope to grow her own as allies of the Alliance, is the heart of the Genesaur Yalnu, killed above Stormwind.

Implementation – The allied race Botani would use an altered Night Elf model, and would start in the Twilight Grove in Duskwood, which would be their racial hub. Their racial mount would be Ancient and their heritage armour carrying on the nature themed aesthetic. Finally classes they could play include – Druid, Warrior, Shaman, Rogue, Monk, Hunter, Mage, Priest.

Redeemed Forsaken – Recruited by the Worgen

Junker Gnomes – Recruited by the Gnomes

Jinyu – Recruited by the Tushui Pandaren

 

MMORPG Burnout

People who know me might not realise that I’m actually a huge computer game player, particularly MMORPG’s and have literally played nearly every different one under the sun. Ok that might be an exaggeration, but I have played a lot of different ones and genres. One problem that I seem to encounter with every one I play though is burnout, that feeling where you just can’t be bothered to log in anymore and sadly a game you found addictively enjoyable just doesn’t interest you. My problem is that when playing an MMORPG, I want to invest all my time in it and have it as my sort of ‘home game’ – a game that I constantly play, always enjoy and to some minor level invest in it like you would a job or career. Now people might think this too much but if I’m investing my time into something, even has a hobby, I want it to be worthwhile.

Just to put into perspective of how many different MMORPG’s i’ve played and got burnt out on, here is a list:

  • World of Warcraft
  • Final Fantasy XIV
  • Rift
  • Everquest 2
  • Aion
  • Allods Online
  • Warhammer Online
  • Star Wars The Old Republic
  • The Secret World
  • Wildstar
  • Star Trek Online
  • Champions Online
  • Neverwinter
  • Guild Wars
  • Guild Wars 2
  • The Elder Scrolls Online
  • City of Heroes
  • Runescape

World of Warcraft has always been my main MMORPG though and having played it on and off since vanilla I think it’ll always be one of those ones that even after I’m burnout, I’ll always pick it back up again at a later stage. With the launch of BFA on the horizon and the release of the first four Allied Races, it’s given me plenty to do on the game and I seem to be deep into one of those periods where I’m thoroughly enjoying it and play regularly. Other than this I’m really excited for the early access launch of Bless Online so once that’s out I’ll definitely be jumping into that and seeing if it lives up to the hype and hopefully if so, it might become like WoW as one of the main MMORPG’s I play.

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Cheers.

– J

New Year, Trying To Be A Better Me

Well, last year for me was a-lot. There is no other way to put it really. Don’t get me wrong there were several high points during the year; graduating from my masters, starting a adult job, going on holiday, just to name a couple. But for the most part the lows seemed to out weigh these, especially towards the end of the year, so I for one am glad that we’ve seen the back of 2017 and are well on the way to a good 2018. (Cryptic opening paragraph there because I won’t be going into anymore detail on why it was so crap, ok?!)

Now I know that the new year started over a month ago but I wanted to talk about my new years resolutions in a self indulgent, I’m trying to grow sorta way. Every year I make the same ones, to exercise, eat healthy, yadda yadda. You know, all those cliche ones, and do I ever stick to them? No! Well this year is going to be different and I’ve stuck to them pretty well for one month in. Essentially, in light of frankly crap year I had, I’ve done a Kylie Jenner and had a year of realising things and now I’m trying to be more self reflective and mentally healthy. So this year I whittled it down to the following and to be honest they are still cliche but they’re achievable:

  • Manage money better/save more – This one speaks for it’s self. Last year I started my first full time adult job and moved into a flat in which for the first time wasn’t student accommodation, although it still feels like it sometimes. Because of this and the fact my job doesn’t pay the best I’ve had to be more strict with my spending, so in light of this I’ve tried to save what I can each month and set up separate bank accounts for bills, savings and spending (something I’d suggest you do as it makes the whole thing so much easier to manage). My main motivation for this resolution though being that now I’m a full time adult I need to pay for my own holidays and I really want to go on holiday.
  • Stick to learning French daily – Something I’ve came to realise throughout university and from living in a large multicultural city is that nearly everyone can speak another language and I’m hindering myself by not being able to do something which so many others do with ease. So in a bid to fix this I’ve stuck to my duolingo lessons and plan on trying to read and watch more in french. You maybe thinking why french? Well for me its because I find it the easiest as a lot of the words are very similar to english. Coupled with this I’d like to one day emigrate to Canada so knowing french will greatly aid me in this when it comes to finding a job and visa applications.
  • Exercise regularly – Cliche alert! Ok, ok this one maybe something I try to do every year and I do exercise quite often anyway as I enjoy it but I find that sometimes I can easily go weeks without doing so as well. Thus I’ve tasked myself with doing some form of exercise, including long walks, at least 4 to 5 times a week. I find exercise both beneficial for my mental health as much as my physical and by signing up to classes as the gym (spin and kettlebell being my favourites) I’m actually motivated to exercise and stick to it regularly!
  • Do more for my own well-being (Don’t be a fuckboi, eat what I like, hobbies etc) – As I’ve said last year was a bit of a rough one and part of that was because I let my happiness be dictated by people, well one person in particular, and not myself. This meant I was unhappy quite a lot and lost a sense of myself in a bid to try and please said person. But since i’ve realised this I want to be selfish and do more for me, including eating what I want. If I’m exercising regularly I can afford to eat what the hell I like without the worry of putting on weight (still I eat what I want in moderation though, as you should do). Another part of this is that I struggle some times sticking to the hobbies I enjoy when spending the most of my time with people, so this year I’m making the active effort to stick to my hobbies, art and playing video-games, also meaning I’ll be blogging about them both too.

We’ll see if I stick to these as well as I have done but I hope I do. I think the thing with new years resolutions is that they have to be achievable and in some form not for wholly selfish reasons. I also think when its things that will benefit you and something you want to stick to as a process of self-improvement you’re more likely to do so. I hope you’ve enjoyed my ramblings on this topic, even if not, I’ve enjoyed writing about it which is the whole purpose of this blog!

Until next time.

– J