I’ve been living in Manchester for 3 months now, having moved from Edinburgh and while I love it here and know I’ll be staying for the next year or so – I’m already getting that itchy feet feeling where the idea of upping and moving somewhere else again seems highly appealing. Throughout my life, albeit I’m only in my 20’s so it hasn’t been that long, I’ve always been a planner and tried to plan how long I will be in a place or job before I’ll be moving onto the next new thing.
It was always the plan to move to Manchester, it just happened a little sooner than anticipated, and now I’ve gave myself the timescale of 1 to 2 years here, before I move to London or further afield (Toronto I’m looking at you). But the issue is – I want to do it now and I’m wondering where this constant want to move onto something else stems from as currently I’m very happy; I’m happy with my job, I’m happy with my flat, I’m happy with who I live with and I’m happy with my social life – but why isn’t this enough? The idea of London excites me so much, but A – I can’t afford it right now which is one of the reasons I moved to Manchester first as I need to move up the career ladder and earn more before it’ll be doable and B – It was stressful enough to move from Edinburgh to Manchester, I cannot imagine what the process of moving to London must be like! I just feel like we are always told to get the most out of life, so there is this pressure for us to do exactly that by taking part in many different experiences while young – living in different places being one of them.
Trying to be all ~*mindful*~ about what I have now and the possible reasons for wanting to move sooner rather than later, I think it comes down to three things.
- I’m a driven person and when I see people the same age as me or younger, doing more senior jobs than me and amazing kick-ass things in exciting creative fields, I want the same. I’m never going to be the person who can just settle with a job if its “alright”, I ain’t getting any younger and I want that ever allusive ~dream job~
- Following the first point, as you can probably tell by this post and others, I’m inpatient which seems to be a common trait for people my age so I know I’m not alone in this. But I have the attitude that why should we wait for something to happen, when its us ourselves that has to make the change and has the power to do it and when you want to. This stemming from that issue of feeling the pressure to gain the most out of life.
- Finally I’m also selfish in the sense that mainly I am going to look out for myself, meaning if I’m in a job and it isn’t right – I’ll move on and the same goes for where I live. Part of this stems from not wanting to get too attached to anything, people included, as I’m all so aware how quickly things can change for better or for worse.
Is all of this wrong? I think not – live life mainly for yourself, not others. But saying this there is a line still where I still need to consider those around me and when actually might be a good time for me to move on, rather than being impulsive which I am around 89% of the time. I don’t know what I’m trying to gain from this post as I reckon I’ll constantly be battling this dilemma, I guess this rambling is more for myself to just air out these problems I’ve created for myself. Either way the count down is on, who knows how long I’ll stay here before upping and moving my life again – only time will tell. Thanks for reading, until next time.