People who know me might not realise that I’m actually a huge computer game player, particularly MMORPG’s and have literally played nearly every different one under the sun. Ok that might be an exaggeration, but I have played a lot of different ones and genres. One problem that I seem to encounter with every one I play though is burnout, that feeling where you just can’t be bothered to log in anymore and sadly a game you found addictively enjoyable just doesn’t interest you. My problem is that when playing an MMORPG, I want to invest all my time in it and have it as my sort of ‘home game’ – a game that I constantly play, always enjoy and to some minor level invest in it like you would a job or career. Now people might think this too much but if I’m investing my time into something, even has a hobby, I want it to be worthwhile.
Just to put into perspective of how many different MMORPG’s i’ve played and got burnt out on, here is a list:
- World of Warcraft
- Final Fantasy XIV
- Everquest 2
- Allods Online
- Warhammer Online
- Star Wars The Old Republic
- The Secret World
- Star Trek Online
- Champions Online
- Guild Wars
- Guild Wars 2
- The Elder Scrolls Online
- City of Heroes
World of Warcraft has always been my main MMORPG though and having played it on and off since vanilla I think it’ll always be one of those ones that even after I’m burnout, I’ll always pick it back up again at a later stage. With the launch of BFA on the horizon and the release of the first four Allied Races, it’s given me plenty to do on the game and I seem to be deep into one of those periods where I’m thoroughly enjoying it and play regularly. Other than this I’m really excited for the early access launch of Bless Online so once that’s out I’ll definitely be jumping into that and seeing if it lives up to the hype and hopefully if so, it might become like WoW as one of the main MMORPG’s I play.
Well, last year for me was a-lot. There is no other way to put it really. Don’t get me wrong there were several high points during the year; graduating from my masters, starting a adult job, going on holiday, just to name a couple. But for the most part the lows seemed to out weigh these, especially towards the end of the year, so I for one am glad that we’ve seen the back of 2017 and are well on the way to a good 2018. (Cryptic opening paragraph there because I won’t be going into anymore detail on why it was so crap, ok?!)
Now I know that the new year started over a month ago but I wanted to talk about my new years resolutions in a self indulgent, I’m trying to grow sorta way. Every year I make the same ones, to exercise, eat healthy, yadda yadda. You know, all those cliche ones, and do I ever stick to them? No! Well this year is going to be different and I’ve stuck to them pretty well for one month in. Essentially, in light of frankly crap year I had, I’ve done a Kylie Jenner and had a year of realising things and now I’m trying to be more self reflective and mentally healthy. So this year I whittled it down to the following and to be honest they are still cliche but they’re achievable:
- Manage money better/save more – This one speaks for it’s self. Last year I started my first full time adult job and moved into a flat in which for the first time wasn’t student accommodation, although it still feels like it sometimes. Because of this and the fact my job doesn’t pay the best I’ve had to be more strict with my spending, so in light of this I’ve tried to save what I can each month and set up separate bank accounts for bills, savings and spending (something I’d suggest you do as it makes the whole thing so much easier to manage). My main motivation for this resolution though being that now I’m a full time adult I need to pay for my own holidays and I really want to go on holiday.
- Stick to learning French daily – Something I’ve came to realise throughout university and from living in a large multicultural city is that nearly everyone can speak another language and I’m hindering myself by not being able to do something which so many others do with ease. So in a bid to fix this I’ve stuck to my duolingo lessons and plan on trying to read and watch more in french. You maybe thinking why french? Well for me its because I find it the easiest as a lot of the words are very similar to english. Coupled with this I’d like to one day emigrate to Canada so knowing french will greatly aid me in this when it comes to finding a job and visa applications.
- Exercise regularly – Cliche alert! Ok, ok this one maybe something I try to do every year and I do exercise quite often anyway as I enjoy it but I find that sometimes I can easily go weeks without doing so as well. Thus I’ve tasked myself with doing some form of exercise, including long walks, at least 4 to 5 times a week. I find exercise both beneficial for my mental health as much as my physical and by signing up to classes as the gym (spin and kettlebell being my favourites) I’m actually motivated to exercise and stick to it regularly!
- Do more for my own well-being (Don’t be a fuckboi, eat what I like, hobbies etc) – As I’ve said last year was a bit of a rough one and part of that was because I let my happiness be dictated by people, well one person in particular, and not myself. This meant I was unhappy quite a lot and lost a sense of myself in a bid to try and please said person. But since i’ve realised this I want to be selfish and do more for me, including eating what I want. If I’m exercising regularly I can afford to eat what the hell I like without the worry of putting on weight (still I eat what I want in moderation though, as you should do). Another part of this is that I struggle some times sticking to the hobbies I enjoy when spending the most of my time with people, so this year I’m making the active effort to stick to my hobbies, art and playing video-games, also meaning I’ll be blogging about them both too.
We’ll see if I stick to these as well as I have done but I hope I do. I think the thing with new years resolutions is that they have to be achievable and in some form not for wholly selfish reasons. I also think when its things that will benefit you and something you want to stick to as a process of self-improvement you’re more likely to do so. I hope you’ve enjoyed my ramblings on this topic, even if not, I’ve enjoyed writing about it which is the whole purpose of this blog!
Until next time.